Alot.

I miss the way things used to be.
When I loved my job. And Gladly woke up every morning with a smile on my face, and worked my 8 hour days/ 40 hours a week. And was living comfortably with money.    I miss when my bestfriend was 5 minutes down the road, and when I was having the worst of days, she was there to cry with me. I miss picking up my goddaughter, Olivia, and kissing her a hundred and one times, and watching her beautiful little smile light up my whole world.   I miss being able to punch my sister and run, making her chase me around the house..   I miss my brother making me laugh hysterically until I pissed my pants, and then we would both laugh. ahah..  
   I miss high school. I miss seeing everyone everyday.
I miss elementary school, and girlscouts.. Going to summer camp every year, and riding my gorgeous horse Charlie =)
  I miss having all of our friends over for a huge bonfire that would last all night, and camping in tents in our backyard..     I miss dancing in the rain with Brittany Virginia in Arkansas. 
   I miss staying out late with Kayela, and sleeping whever we possibly could.
I miss working at the icecream store„ and giving out all the free icecream to my friends that would come see me =)
     I miss so much. That I will never get to enjoy ever again..  And that hurts.

Don’t get me wrong, I love Arizona.
But for some reason, the people here are extremely rude, and inconsiderate.  Maybe it’s me having a hardtime opening up to people, but I don’t seem to be making friends, like I usually do.   That’s one of the hardest things, is not having anyone to talk to or hang out with..     But Thats partially my fault.   I don’t trust ANYONE anymore.   Ugghh„ I just have to hope that things will get better..

but Until then„ I’ll stay perfectly unhappy!

xoxoxo